Holy smokes i have a blog. I had forgotten about you! and re-reading my post from a year ago, thank god i had! A lot has changed over the year, and i'm very happy it has...mostly.
To pick apart my last entry, i still don't really communicate with my family in general. we're just not that type of family. I do routinely visit my grandparents, mainly to make sure they're still moving and functioning properly.
Oh--the fantastic teacher who helped me out in high school? turned out to be just another skeezeball, hidden underneath the "nice man" image. he, being all of 40-something years old and married to boot, randomly came into the bar i was working at one night (mind you i haven't seen this guy since 2004). He then proceeded to rack up a larger than average bar tab (which he never did pay) and did the gentlemanly thing of walking me to my car at 2am after my shift.. or so i thought until he attempted to plant one on me...while wearing the wedding ring. i did feel emotionally violated for a bit after that. respect is hard to earn and even harder to give these days.
I finally did stop making the wrong decisions with Mr. Right Now so that he could return to his UnHappily Ever After, and moved on to what appeared to be Prince Charming until that started turning into a nightmare itself. we decided to break it off and attempt to be friends; and by "we" i mean me, and by "attempt" i mean it's not going very well. At this point i am taking the time to map out my next game plan, up to and including how often to date and when to begin other things. With the latter being a bit more tricky now that i have a conscience and morals, i'm simply just having fun going out with friends and taking life as it comes.
I always wondered what my grades in college would be like if i never had any other imposing priorities, and lo and behold did i get my wish. it's really strange, actually working to my full potential, and i'm starting to enjoy it; no more papers whipped up at the last second, no more half-assed assignments.
overall, i have assessed that i am smarter than i thought =)
To pick apart my last entry, i still don't really communicate with my family in general. we're just not that type of family. I do routinely visit my grandparents, mainly to make sure they're still moving and functioning properly.
Oh--the fantastic teacher who helped me out in high school? turned out to be just another skeezeball, hidden underneath the "nice man" image. he, being all of 40-something years old and married to boot, randomly came into the bar i was working at one night (mind you i haven't seen this guy since 2004). He then proceeded to rack up a larger than average bar tab (which he never did pay) and did the gentlemanly thing of walking me to my car at 2am after my shift.. or so i thought until he attempted to plant one on me...while wearing the wedding ring. i did feel emotionally violated for a bit after that. respect is hard to earn and even harder to give these days.
I finally did stop making the wrong decisions with Mr. Right Now so that he could return to his UnHappily Ever After, and moved on to what appeared to be Prince Charming until that started turning into a nightmare itself. we decided to break it off and attempt to be friends; and by "we" i mean me, and by "attempt" i mean it's not going very well. At this point i am taking the time to map out my next game plan, up to and including how often to date and when to begin other things. With the latter being a bit more tricky now that i have a conscience and morals, i'm simply just having fun going out with friends and taking life as it comes.
I always wondered what my grades in college would be like if i never had any other imposing priorities, and lo and behold did i get my wish. it's really strange, actually working to my full potential, and i'm starting to enjoy it; no more papers whipped up at the last second, no more half-assed assignments.
overall, i have assessed that i am smarter than i thought =)
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